InsomniaInsomnia...Insomnia by Bethebelle13
I'm nauseous. Teeth chattering, saliva flooding, tongue distending - not sure if it's from too much caffeine and too little food, lack of sleep... or teeth-grinding, ulcer-inducing stress.
My heart's shaky, trembling, jittering- a broken butterfly struggling; A rabbit, cornered, waiting to bolt- to push between my esophagus and trachea, clamber up my throat, out through my mouth onto the floor- suicide.
I'm hungry, but I can't feel my stomach. It's strange- the feeling of an organ disconnected. Leaving me hollow, like a gutted tree trunk- just this empty space where butterflies should live. Now it's a hide-away spot for me to crawl into- escaping from my family, friends, reality.
This is when I climb my ribs- nestling just down from my heart, eyes shut. I feel my heartbeat thudding through me like bass from a speaker, the thrum of my blood through my body. In these moments my body is time, is space, is reality, is a dream.
Other times though, I slip up my spinal column, hid